Okay, having babies before my friends didn’t bother me so much, but having a preteen first is a bit trickier. Things are changing, and I am learning as I go. I am sure I am making lots of mistakes along the way. How I am to really reach this girl that is growing up before me is not so easy. She mostly wants to hang out in her own room alone by day, yet at night she wants to sleep on my floor because she is afraid to be alone. This I don’t really understand, but I remember having the same fears when I was around her age. I am trying to motivate her to really live life, but she currently is unmotivated. I know this is a time of transition for her as well. Oh how I wish this part of life came with a manual!